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Saturday, June 25, 2011This is to those crazy jealous girlfriends. I have to admit I am one of you. I never wanted to be, never thought I would be, but then I fell in love for the first time and found out what is like to see the love of your life with his ex or even his girl friends. Every time I get jealous, I let my emotions get the best of me and freaked out. Every time I online his Social Network, and I saw blabla accepted your friend request. It's just a friend requests actually, hmm but, things that upset me is that, the girls he added is somehow, i don't know. And somehow, I get upset, when he treated girl like more than friends. I don’t understand why I get so jealous. He’s mine all mine not hers or them and I know that and he knows that and he makes sure that I know that. He loves me with all his heart and shows it even when I get into childish mode. He is my sweetheart and yet I treat him like shit when I saw the friend requests accepted.. He used to asked me how could anyone that “loved” him treat him they way I did. I didn’t have an answer but now I do. It's because I love him so much because I never want to lose him or see him in someone else arms. I want him to be mine forever and at times I get selfish and stupid and freak out for no reason. But it’s because I’m so deeply in love with him. But I pushed him pretty far away every time I get jealous. So far that I’m not sure he is coming back. But I pray to God that he does. Because if I lose him I don’t know what I’m going to do. He's the light of my darkness. (L)OVE * 11:24 AM
We are so cliche. We finish each others sentences, sometimes I think you're a mind reader. I cannot count the times in a day we say the words "I love you" yet this countless amount never seems like it's enough. I love you infinity past beyond, because this love really does transcend this universe. Your love for me makes me grow childish-a feeling more amazing than could be described- for while everyone is busy trying to grow up and move on, you bring out the joyful youth in me. You've reminded me what being happy is and have shown me that I've been missing out on happiness for far too long. The first time you told me how you felt - that you loved me - my heart seemed to melt and overflow my ribcage. This was a feeling like no other. People say they get butterflies around "that" someone, that they feel all warm and fuzzy inside and that their heart just melts as it is overcome by such a strong and pure emotion. I doubted that possibility, laughed a bit at how cliche it seemed. I mean of course I'd fantasized about the possibility, but I never thought I could feel that way so literally. I thought I just needed a friend. But what I needed was you. And darling, we are the best promise you could ever break. We fawn over each other, constantly declaring our love and proclaiming every possible reason why our love is the perfect love. We'd get so deep into these conversations of outpouring affection but then try and pull ourselves out, for fear of being too cliche. That's what I do when I see you, or hear you or read something you write. I smile. You always give me that smile. You are the sunshine in my life when I'm a stormy cloud, so together we create a rainbow. (L)OVE * 11:18 AM
Friday, June 24, 2011Men want to be woman's first love BUT woman want to be mans last romance!Hmm. I really do want to be his last romance. Sh*t. HA-HA I don't know. I feel like I'm the second last. Sometimes I acted childish because of You. Like I said, now, I've less attention and lack of affection from the people I love. And that's you. Haih, I'm tired with life. But hell yeah, I've to deal what people called life :) (L)OVE * 11:03 AM
Thursday, June 23, 2011Hey, What's up? It's supposed to make me feel awesome. But i don't feel that way. I feel worthless now. It was pretty much like a damn Flakes Crackers - tasteless, boring! -,- I don't understand why I wreck everything up when everything starts to go well. I guess I'm scared of perfection. Life is too real to be perfect, ergo it can also be too perfect to be real. I don't feel it always has to be perfect, cause I know in every goodness there is, there's always a damn misery attached to it. (L)OVE * 10:25 AM
Hey peeps. What's up? I like this tongue-in-cheek advice on how to run. In almost any situation, I feel like running helps lead to mental clarity. Running away, running towards. Running in a zig-zag motion so you don't get hit. Running the town and running yourself down so you sleep soundly when you get home. Letting the tears run. Letting your eyeliner run. Letting the faucet run as you splash cold water on your face. And tell yourself it will all be okay sooner than you think. Knowing it was a good run while you had it. But most of all, realizing that you never let anyone else run your life. P/S ; I feel like running away from people. Hmm I'm sorry, I'm not brave! (L)OVE * 10:14 AM
Hello! When I am craving human attention and affection, I cannot find anyone willing to offer me any. And now that a nice soul wants to take me out to chop my hair, I turn down this person's proposal. Maybe I am making a really big mistake by saying no. But my mind has me on this guilt trip every time I "displease" people with my disappointing responses. I am almost immune to it. (L)OVE * 10:01 AM
We all know that BFF means Best Friends Forever. Friends share happy moments with you ; laughs, crushes, failed test, failures and achievements. There are always two kinds of friends you must keep ; A good study buddy who knows self-control and one who knows how to party - I mean, seriously! There's a time to play and time to study. But good friends will be with you through out. Remember ; If a friends talks behind your back, don't get angry so quickly. Friends are our mirrors so they might just be right about you! (L)OVE * 7:44 AM
Hello World. Ever wonder? Why is it, when your looking for that someone, you find no one. B U T . Once you find it. A lot more choices start showing up? B U T . If you leave that first love, then, they all start drifting away? Is that love's way of testing your true feelings or to? (L)OVE * 7:33 AM
Monday, June 20, 2011Well Hello Earthlings! *grind* Okay. It's about time I got a call from my past. Reminiscing of the past actually. Try re-called the past blog I have. Hahaha. It's full of laughter. Future starts now. Good bye past. Try miss call me sometimes. I would love to go back there :) (L)OVE * 11:32 PM
Hey World. It's father's day yaww! Err, actually this post should be published for the last two days. But i forgot to click on the PUBLISH POST. Forgive me my fellow mates. Hee. Dad, When I was born, you were there to catch me when I fall, whenever and wherever. When I took my first steps, you were there to encourage me on. When I had my first day at school, you were there to give me advice and help me with my homework. I know, you will be there for me through all these times and more, the good and bad. Happy Father's Day Dad, iloveyou ♥ (L)OVE * 11:24 PM
Wednesday, June 15, 2011Ku susuri malam ini Yang tidak berbintang sunyi sepi Juga rembulan dah menghilang Dalam kelam ku sendiri Ku mencari hembus bayu Yang selalu berbisik madah rindu Kini membisu dalam sayu Tidak ku temu suaramu Kekasihku di jalanan yang berliku Di saat ku perlukanmu Tertutup jua segalanya terhadapmu Di sini ku tersedu-sedu Setelah cinta pergi Ku mengusung duka ini diiringi… Kisah janji dimungkiri lagi… Kekasihku di jalanan yang berliku Di saat ku perlukanmu Tertutup jua segalanya terhadapmu Di sini ku tersedu-sedu Setelah cinta pergi Ku mengusung duka ini Diiringi Kisah janji Dimungkiri Dimungkiri.. hooohhh.. Sia-sia ku Mencintaimu Setia padamu Percayakanmu Sebak dadaku Retak hatiku Luka jiwaku Dihiris pilu Hmm. Sedih tahu? Hahaha :') Ya Allah, takde perasaan apa aku ni. Hahaha. Hmm, Tah lah. Memang sedihlah kan ceritanya. Ehh. Silap. Lagu :) Bayangkan lah, kita, perempuan sendiri yang kena. Mahu tak menangis kan? Kita sacrifice everything to him. Dye pergi buat bodoh. Curang, Ayat perempuan *acah hebat. fcuk off. Or even, lied to you. Haih, Wahai lelaki. Kalau perkara ni happen with your mum or even sister or even maybe wife and daughters. Menyesal tak sudah. Belajar lah untuk setia. Belajar untuk m'hormati perempuan. Memang cinta datang dan pergi. Tapi kalau dah dapat cinta sejati, Tak salah kan pertahankan? -.-
(L)OVE * 11:18 AM
Tuesday, June 14, 2011Dear Curve. Please be Good :'( I love you dear phone. Please :'( (L)OVE * 11:24 AM
Sunday, June 12, 2011Hello World. My first week holiday, started with a movie! J-yeah \m/ My favorite movie for the holiday are 'Just Go With It' and 'No Strings Attached'. Yeah! It's fun watching the same movie again and again and again! Only IF the movie is fun and enjoyable to be watch! Hihi. A visit to a cinema? Err, not now. I'm not in a mood to go out for a visit to the mall or even a cinema. But I'll visit my boy soon, hihi :) (L)OVE * 11:46 PM
Saturday, June 11, 2011NAK UPDATE OR TAK NAK ? HMM . OF COURSE LAH NAK . HMM . TAK NAK LAH . ALAA . HMM . NAK ! HMM DECISION ? I DON'T WANT. NOT IN MOOD. KBYE!
(L)OVE * 7:14 PM
Wednesday, June 8, 2011Hello Dear! Good News for me! EXAM IS OVER. Hihi, People, I've done my best for my final. And how I wish, I could get better result for this year 1 semester 3. Somehow, there's one paper that is a subject killer. It's business computing. Maybe for some people, it is easy. But seriously, I can't focus. Maybe because of the situation in the class. Or even maybe, our mistakes for not focusing. But what to do. Past is Past. You can't go back to the past darling <3
(L)OVE * 11:44 AM
Dear Beloved Readers. If there's one. Hihi. Okay, The title is about ONE contest at ONE of the famous social network in the teenagers life nowadays. This social network is somehow a place where teenagers always said ; A Place Where Budak - Budak Baru Nak Up. Teenagers? What do you expect them to said? Haha. Okay, Back to the topic. It's a My Best Friend Forever contest. Lala and I decided to join the contest for fun. Not that we're looking for publicity or such. If you don't know what's our agenda behind the contest is all about, do shut your pie hole up! Hihihi. Well, dear readers. Feel free to vote for us. 1) LIKE http://www.facebook.com/ei 2) LIKE http://www.facebook.com/ph (L)OVE * 11:24 AM
Hello love bugs. Hihihi. Well, It's gonna be our Eighth on the 10 of June 2011. We're still new in this LOYAL relationship. Alhamdulillah, It's gonna be the eight month. Both of us survive in this relationship. It's kinda unbelievable for him and me. Because basically, we're born hurting people feelings. It is every woman’s dream
To find a man who can share A life together as a team Thru’ happiness and despair A man who can make her beam And knows how to care That love becomes a theme Circling warmly in the air Life flows like a gentle stream That’s because of you, I swear. (L)OVE * 11:17 AM
Monday, June 6, 2011Hello Earthlings *waving hand with grinding teeth* Okay, see the title up there? Study. What? You didn't study? Err, heck yea I studied, well, it's just a last minute study, peeps. I don't know if everything I studied is fully in my mind. What to do? I'm in love with laziness and last minute things. Everything I do, its gonna be a last minute things because of I keep on following my laziness everywhere. What do you expect from a teenagers like me? Hahaha. I'm married to laziness yaww. And currently thinking when should I filed my divorce with Mr. Laziness. A last minute studies is kinda give a hectic for me, hihi! Making my minds have a visit from mr. Headache. Okay, I talk crap, just because of mr Headache. So, Hmmmmm. Off -ing. Love yaw :)
(L)OVE * 8:28 AM
Well hello world. Haha, as if there is someone following aight? Dangggg! Oh well, basically, hello people. I'm Melissa, you can call me Melly or Mel. Hahaha, stupid! There already know your name! Err, Okay, back to the title. Exam? Shit, starting Tuesday and Wednesday. I'll be sitting for my final examination yaww. Ahaa. Thanks to God this sem, there is only two subjects. Alhamdulillah ~ ^___^ Pray for my success, hope i will get the Dean List, haha, *bapak ah! :) First paper I'm gonna seat tomorrow is Pengajian Islam. Around 9 AM in the morning. What? Morning? Haih, Have to wake up early and go to Shah Alam, the second home! Second paper gonna be Business Computing. The same time, 9 AM on Wednesday. Then the next paper? Hahaha, NEXT SEMESTER :D Next semester I'm gonna be in year 2 !
(L)OVE * 1:26 AM
Friday, June 3, 2011Hello World :) Last Tuesday, my presentation for subject Business Computing were perfectly done well. It was fun, everyone were enjoying it so does our lecturer. ^___^ All of Lala and my hard work make everything goes well. Thanks to Allah :) Hee, Alhamdulillah ~ They were few group were being scolded. But all of us, takes it as a lesson. Never copy paste all the works 100% from internet :) Do it due to all your creativity , hee. People keep on saying, our teams have the best slide ever, and seriously, that's what we called, White Lies. We didn't do the slide to beat who's better and who's not, we did it for fun! To get the mark of 10% :)
(L)OVE * 3:54 AM
Wednesday, June 1, 2011Hmm. This is the second day that we've been fighting. In the name of Allah, I felt like giving up. But, love make me stay strong in this relationship. I've started the mess by forcing him doing things he don't want to do. But everything I do is for him. Like I said, till when you will hope for people help? What should I do? I've tried my best. Even I'm hurt by you, I still try to find a way to contact you. I've hurt you with my words. I've cried the whole night. Sitting alone in my room, wondering what are you doing now? Till when we will be this cold? Hmm. Sometimes love is not that sweet all the time. There will always times of cold. Thanks to Allah, He gave me strength to be strong. Like he used to say : Our love story might not be like a fairy tale, but we'll make it just to be meaningful. After the fight, we're not talking for a long time. I tried to follow my ego, but? I can't. I can't ignore him. I text him, I called him. Lastly, he replied and he answer my phone call. Alhamdulillah. My hard-work by keep on calling him, text him, turns out well. But for sometime, he didn't reply but I kept on text, till I've run out of tears and mood. I just go for a walk near the house, sit at the playground to get some fresh air. Then, around 5 I go back home and sit on the couch remembering all the memories. Done with all the past memories, I went back to my room and I see my phone is blinking from green to red. I grab it, and see, he text! Yeay :) But today, I'm sorry guys if I don't talk much to you guys. (L)OVE * 4:58 AM |
YOU KNOW YOU WANNA KNOW MEI'm not single, trust me. I can cheer other people up when they're sad. I live my life to the fullest without bothering others. |
MAKE SOME NOISE, ITS A PARTYI'll be yours in plenty and in times of wants, in times of sickness And in times of health, in times of joys and in times of sorrows. I promise to respect you, to cherish you, to care for you. To protect you, to comfort you and to support you. Loving what i know about you and trusting you for all the thing I don't know. Entreat me not to leave you. Wherever you go, I'll go. Wherever you stay, I'll stay. Your people will be my people. Where you die, I'll die. AND THERE I WILL BURIED :) |
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