Jealous.

This is to those crazy jealous girlfriends.
I have to admit I am one of you.

I never wanted to be, never thought I would be, but then I fell in love for the first time and found out what is like to see the love of your life with his ex or even his girl friends.

Every time I get jealous, I let my emotions get the best of me and freaked out.
Every time I online his Social Network, and I saw blabla accepted your friend request.
It's just a friend requests actually, hmm but, things that upset me is that, the girls he added is somehow, i don't know.
And somehow, I get upset, when he treated girl like more than friends.

I don’t understand why I get so jealous.
He’s mine all mine not hers or them and I know that and he knows that and he makes sure that I know that.

He loves me with all his heart and shows it even when I get into childish mode.
He is my sweetheart and yet I treat him like shit when I saw the friend requests accepted..

He used to asked me how could anyone that “loved” him treat him they way I did.
I didn’t have an answer but now I do.
It's because I love him so much because I never want to lose him or see him in someone else arms.
I want him to be mine forever and at times I get selfish and stupid and freak out for no reason.

But it’s because I’m so deeply in love with him.
But I pushed him pretty far away every time I get jealous.
So far that I’m not sure he is coming back.
But I pray to God that he does.
Because if I lose him I don’t know what I’m going to do.
He's the light of my darkness.