Feeling

There’s this guy that’s special to me and I'm afraid to lose him. Sometimes I wonder why he’s with me because I have these insecurities and I see imperfections that no one else may see, I see prettier or better girls that he talks to and I might get jealous even because I'm afraid “She” will steal him away from me. I'm afraid that if they talk his attention will be more focused on her, then me. There’s always that constant fear or losing him, that fear that he will get bored of me and find someone better. I want to text or call him, but I know I'm just waiting for him to do it first to show he’s thinking of me and to show that he misses me. I just want him to care and be there for me :/